I’ve been approaching some things the wrong way. Things take effort.
I talk a lot about being in flow—it’s my little tagline on Maggie Ward Coaching: Rediscover flow. Live aligned. I chose that over “I don’t know what to tell ya, just do it or don’t,” but maybe I’ll reconsider.
Because I’m learning that I continuously, unconsciously seek this aspirational point in life where everything will be fine and I’ll be cool, calm, and collected about all things. I’m a lot of things—cool, calm, and collected is not one of them.
I’m emotional, confused, and often frustrated. I think I’m doing all the right things, yet I continue to find myself disappointed, as though something just hasn’t clicked yet.
I’m on this little hamster wheel of hyper-self-awareness. I notice I’m hard on myself, then try to fix that part of me. And still, I don’t always feel okay. Sometimes this work feels a bit pointless.
What am I actually doing? People want to do what they want to do—so let it be.
People, including me.
I’d rather eat a bag of fake healthy Cheetos (Barbara’s, what’s up) and watch The Night Agent than go to an evening yoga class. I’d rather wake up, drink two cups of coffee, and stare out the window than write this blog post. I’d rather obsess over whether this person will text me back—will they or won’t they?—than just let it go.
So yeah. Life, sometimes, you know?
Which brings me back to that first part about effort.
I’m learning this magical click isn’t coming without effort. Sometimes, it’s just about doing the things we’d rather not.
So I don’t know what to tell ya—do it or don’t.
